our last dance

goodbye toxic boy.

(taken from pinterest)

tuesday morning
despair and melancholy
hold hands and
waltz to the
beat of my
heart

can’t believe
your first ‘okay’
to see me
in three years
was for the
unavoidable
goodbye

played it cool
twenty-two minutes
till i see you
till i seal our fate
till you’re no longer
mine to lose

my eyes land
on your familiar
silhouette
you’re wearing
that black tee
again

moments i spent
with you
in this exact spot
emerge from the
depths of my
subconscious
to take a fresh
breath of air

we were so free
we were so connected
we were just us

how ironic it is
to say my
parting words
in the space
you first made
my heart
race

i still remember
your subtle nod
and smile—
all for me
unaware that
i was here
to draw
blood

chocolate pie
crochet cardholder
handwritten letter

my dilemma
vanished
the moment
my eyes landed
on a space-themed
dm you were
texting in
moments before

and you dare
excuse your ghosting
with cheap lies
it was always me
explaining away
your bad habits

so i’ll dance
one last time
with you
dear boy—
don’t mistake
my
kindness
for
foolishness.